Sorry I haven't updated this in awhile

     I have been struggling writing all of this out. It's a very hard thing for me. Most of the time I will click on this blog and just sit there looking at the words I have already written and think to myself "The story of that day just gets worse from here" and then I don't write it down. I have written it all down before in a different setting. In fact I wrote it on a PTSD forum but there those people understand what I was going through so it's easier. And I have never tried to tell it more in a story form with adding the graphic details of what i thought at the time and what I think now. So it is difficult to say the least. I made a slideshow video that explains my journey and where I am today. I will put it on here in the hopes that someone on here or on youtube is somehow helped by my experience.